Reunion in Whatsapp.. :) My Post Graduation Days!!!! Memory down the lane

Never ever in my life have i thought of going back to a phase of life to relive or to change anything that happened. Either it can be termed as Attitude or Awesome living. I will opt for the later... i have lived an awesome life.. This is what my impression was until few days back, and all of a sudden i had this huge erge 1. To scream over a hill top, or 2. Just go to a loud music party and put my hands down, or 3. Get lost in the depth of the beauty of nature, or 4. Start over totally as an unknown person in a village My list goes on...... Then i sat back to think what's wrong, might be i knew it all along for last few couple of years by now but as usual kept on with it. Consoling myself by saying "This is life" since that is what is being taught to us from the childhood. I used to write diaries but even there i can't open up due to the fear of someone reading it. We all do have secrets only known to US. Life has been awesome for me... so far so good... its just that i had to negate one person to say so... I really feel the cultural difference between the where i was bought up and where i belonged.. When i came down south to do my higher studies i had no clue on what to expect and what will be expected coz i did not even had to think about that until then... I am not trying to discriminate between Northern and Southern part of India, I am strong beleiver that one can enjoy in hell provided you are with your “Best Friends”. It’s just matter of fact “With whom you are?” I don’t know how to put it though, but here are few drops of thoughts that disturb me since my Post Graduation days & I was kind of reminded of this every other moment: 1. I am a girl and I should behave so 2. Be careful with guys 3. You can play with a guy 4. A Guy can never be friends with a Girl for lifetime 5. Past can never be Past & people don’t MOVE ON 6. You can never be in talking terms with your EX 7. Whenever you are being watched , you are being judged simultaneously 8. Once Judged, people never change those judgments about one 9. No one is honest enough without being rude I till date am not able to figure out what’s there in the mind of one of my friend whom I consider friend for lifetime… I WANT TO BREATH AGAIN!!!!! LIVE AGAIN!!!! STOP THINKING ABOUT PEOPLE WHO WERE AROUND ONCE UPON A TIME Might be I just need to disconnect then????